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Published April 6, 2012 by atirahjewel

I plan the future,

So I don’t have to live in the now,

I find comfort in the past,

So I don’t have to face the present,

The present that I am pathetic,

That I am a disappointment,

I try to make everything just right,

Perfect,

But somehow,

I always make the most mistakes,

Me, who has no real talent,

Me, whose opinion and thoughts don’t really matter,

Drowning in myself for I am nothing to anyone else,

I will live in this pretend world of mine,

And pass each day of my untitled life by with self-seclusion,

And there I will plan my untitled future,

So I don’t have to live in the now,

I will find comfort in my untitled past,

So I won’t have to face my present,

And doing this,

I will pass each day of my life,

My meaningless, miserable existence,

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Copyright © 2012 by

Atirah Jewel

5 comments on “Untitled

  • And yet, some people are either past oriented or future oriented. This poem makes me think of how some people are afraid of today, always planning, always hoping for better. They remember the past good times with a slight guilt of not full enjoying it. Is this what you wanted to say? If so, I like how use first person for something that connects to alot of people.

    • Actually Isaura, while I know it connects with a lot of people, I was writing it in first person because this is how I sometimes feel myself. I do realize that I am loved and my opinion, in some cases, does matter, but I am also a perfectionist which is the reason for the verse “I try to make everything just right,

      Perfect,

      But somehow,

      I always make the most mistakes.”

      I do plan my future and look back at happy times in my past and wish I was there instead of here in the present. So to answer your question, that is sort of what I was saying, but for only myself. I’m happy you enjoyed my poem though.

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