All posts tagged dreaming


Published June 17, 2013 by atirahjewel

In even your lightest hour,

Darkness consumes you,

In your brightest moment,

Shadows rule,

Even the purest of your dreams,

Are tainted with the unholy thing that is me.

When the blood clouds your eyes,

Let it fall down your body like the silk down the bed,

Let it consume you like the predator does the prey.

Is this a dream?

Am I dreaming of a world that doesn’t exist,

Where you and I could possibly be?

If so, then wake me up,

I would hate for you to be trapped in such an ugly nightmare.

Copyright © 2013 by

Atirah Jewel

Just for Now

Published July 6, 2012 by atirahjewel

Just now, even if just for the night,

Let’s forget who we are,

Just for the night,

We need no personal identities,

We just need ourselves,

Just for now,

We can be just you and me,

A man and woman in love,

We can hold each other at last

And not give a damn what anyone says,

Because for now you are just you,

And I am just me,

Kiss me,

Hold me,

Love me,

Taste me,

Want me,

And I’ll do it for you,

I’ll be everything for you,

I’ll be nothing for you,

I’ll do it all for you,

So just for now, be a man,

And let me be a woman,

And let’s love.

Copyright © 2012 by

Atirah Jewel

Another Award

Published June 4, 2012 by atirahjewel

I really late with this one, but I really haven’t gotten on in a while so it’s not entirely my fault. 🙂 This time it is the “Very Inspiring Blogger” award. I have ~Lady Day of 75 Kaleidoscopes to thank. I am honored that I was nominated by her because I myself am very much inspired by her works. Thank you very much for the nomination R.L. King!

So let’s take a look at the rules.

Rule 1: Display the award logo somewhere in your blog.

Rule 2: Link back to the blog of the person who nominated you.

Rule 3: Share seven things about yourself that people don’t already know.

1) I’m not very good at this Ü. I base some of my poems on songs I love or sometimes people I love (who doesn’t).

2) Like most people,  I have started hundreds of discussions but never let them be finished or settled because I am constantly changing the subject.

3) I am very much a potty-mouth

4) I’m a very energetic person. (Not hyper, but energetic.)

5) I always make sure the first thing I do in the morning is listen to music (7 out of 10 times it will be David Bowie)

6) You can always find me quoting lyrics from a song or lines from a movie in just about any given situation.

7) Finally, number 7. I love learning new things and am constantly studying, it may be about how the brain works or how a slinky works, as long as I’m learning something.

Rule 4: Nominate 15 other bloggers for the award and provide links to their blogs.

#1 Hollyanne from hollyanne gets poetic

#2JadedHeart from Thoughts From A Jaded Heart

#3 Ami Fidèle of Perplexing Thoughts

#4 If Only

#5 lonewolfpoetry

#6 David Eric Cummins of The Noise of Silence

#7 Jessica Davis of Authored Angioplasty

#8 Wendy Strohm

#9 Boomie Bol

Rule 5: Notify those bloggers that they have been nominated and of the award’s requirements.

Whew, that was some work, but at least no ‘explain why’ this time. 🙂 Thank you once again to R.L. King, I truly appreciate it. 🙂


Published April 17, 2012 by atirahjewel

My dear, my dearest,

Good-bye to you,

As the cloak glittered with jewels finds you,

Oh, what sorrow follows tainted love,

I’m sorry you had to go,

Ripped from me,

And ripped from my heart.


My sweet, my sweetest,

Farewell to you,

Your body left to decay in the filth that made you,

But don’t worry, you will not be remembered tomorrow,

You will be forgotten like my love for you,

So my dear, my sweet,


Copyright © 2012 by

Atirah Jewel

Can You Still…

Published April 16, 2012 by atirahjewel

When did everything,

Become so disgusting,

When did you,

Become infested with maggots,

Crawling, eating,

The flesh of your wounds,

Being devoured,

Can you still love?


The clouds don’t show today,

They were killed by the sun,

Which was in turn killed by the moon,

Can you hear it?

The agonized screams of souls,

Souls forever sentenced to damnation,

What lies ahead for your soul?

Can you still dream?


While you are still here,

Let us be together under these stars,

Under this hate-filled sky,

Let us love,

Leave everyone else behind in the dark,

And follow me into the light,

Follow me always,

Can you still think?


I search for the love,

The love that is yet to be killed by hate,

Will you sing for me again?

Will you scream for me again,

A million voices in one,

Will you bleed for me again,

Make me whole with your sad cries,

Can you still sing?


The day after tomorrow, the moon will die,

And I will fade with it,

I will murder us both,

And you will drown in the blood and loneliness,

Do you still know how to smile,

When you have no one left to love you,

Can you still laugh, Can you still cry,

Can you still love?

Copyright © 2012 by

Atirah Jewel

Let me Forget

Published April 11, 2012 by atirahjewel

My mind is polluted with the image of you,

That revolting image,

Of your living corpse,

And every shit-filled pore on your being,

The tainted blood dripping from your limbs,

Where you slashed yourself to heighten your misery,

Disappear from my world,

Go join your place in hell where you can freely moan in displeasure,

Complete your partial suicide,

And rot in the dirt,

Sleep eternally and let me forget,

Let me forget when I dreamt of you,

A pleasant dream, let me forget,

Let my memory of you be eaten from my mind as you crumble,

So you will become nothing but a faded thought that I plucked from my skull,

And threw away to rot on your grave with you.

Copyright © 2012 by

Atirah Jewel

Vanilla Death

Published April 10, 2012 by atirahjewel

I sit,

Surrounded by the enticing scent of sweet,

Constricting me in ribbons of vanilla,

Murdering me with pleasure,

I sit, basking in this aroma,

Inhaling it to the top of my lungs,

This delicious scent,

It will be the death of me,

How sensual, how delicious,

So fragrant,

Filling me with desire,

I must be dreaming,

A creamy tasting kiss is planted on my lips,

This must be what hell is like, because it is too dirty to be heaven,

Too filthy with wanting,

In time, my body will find yours,

I sit, waiting for it to happen,

Waiting for us to become one,

In this moment,

These polyester sheets feel like satin rubbing against my thighs,

And as we touch, I am once again overtaken by that sweetness,

The lacy scent of vanilla,

Oh yes,

This pleasure will be the death of me.

Copyright © 2012 by

Atirah Jewel

Azure Velvet

Published March 2, 2012 by atirahjewel

I was dreaming,

Of a world free of sin,

I was hoping,

For a world free of heartbreak,

I was wishing,

For a world full of beauty,

But those wishes,

Those hopes and dreams,

Would never be fulfilled,

So I dreamt to get away from here,

Away from this cold-hearted world I am forced to live in,

I longed for paradise,

A paradise so wondrous,

I would never have to wish again,

I was so lonely,

So spectacularly broken,

The only thing I could ever do,

Was dream,

Wish that death would take me over,

Hope that death would become me,

I basked in the radiance of the thought,

My being was too filled with the sorrow,

Of the unfeeling world,

Of the cruel world,

So I lifted myself,

I saw finally the beauty of the snow,

The stars gleamed brightly as they fell from the sky,

Spotting the ground white,

Sparkling white stardust, snowdrops,

I would no longer cry tears,

I would no longer feel pain,

Death now surrounded me,

And touched my skin,

With delicate folds of azure velvet,

I was free,

I was happy,

I was dreaming,

Of a world free of sin,

I was hoping,

For a world free of heartbreak,

I was wishing,

For a world full of beauty,

But those wishes,

Those hopes and dreams,

Would never be fulfilled,

So I dreamt to get away from here,

And away I went.

Copyright © 2012 by

Atirah Jewel

Our Last Dance

Published February 23, 2012 by atirahjewel

Oh what I would give to hold you again,


I remember clearly,

That time we spent together,

Not knowing it would be the last,

How perfect the evening was,

Feasting on the most delicious food,

Reminiscing the times we had with each other,

I was gazing dreamily at the ring you had given me,

It was simple yet more beautiful than any other you could have got me,

Inscribed on it were the words of your love,

Wrapped in each other’s arms we danced,

We spun and twirled until our feet became sore,

My knees were so weak,

I was sure I would fall,

But caught me with your lips,

And carried me to a place to lie,

You held me then,

You said you wouldn’t let go,

Your whispered promise echoed in my mind for hours,

A promise you would come to break,

Leaving me cold all alone,

No longer kept warm by your embrace,

You let me go,

All I can think of is when we danced,

Our last dance,

At the time I didn’t know it,

But I do now,

You will not love me anymore,

You scattered my broken heart on the floor,

And left me to pick up the pieces,

So cruel of you,

Yet I cannot hate you,

I can only think of that night,

When we drank and we kissed,

When we held each other and your promise,

But one thing returns to my mind the most,

Over and over breaking through every thought I have that doesn’t include you,

When we danced,

Our last dance,

So clumsily graceful,

The one thing in this world I will probably never forget,

The other half of my soul,

And the best night we have ever spent together,

Was also unknowingly the night,

Of our last dance.

Copyright © 2012 by

Atirah Jewel


Published February 14, 2012 by atirahjewel

Your heart,

So beautiful,

Like you your face,

Like your soul,

With eyes so delicately piercing,

And skin so soft only could angel could possess,

I am taunted by the thought of you,

Creeping into my mind when I least expect,

When I try to get you off of it,

When I am dreaming,

The only thing I can dream is you,

And your hauntingly gorgeous angelic being,

Enveloped in your sweet kisses,

I feel true happiness,

Every time I am with you,

It is like the first time,

I experience love at first sight over and over,

Kissed by the goddess of love whenever you are around,

You took my shy bud of a heart,

And it bloomed into a beautiful flower,

Right in your hand,


You could have crushed it at any time,

But you took care of it,

Under this beautiful sky you allowed it to grow,

So wonderful you are,

I love you so much,

That I hate you,

You bring me so much joy,

That you bring me the most sorrow I could ever experience,

My tears fall in big drops,

Like shining diamonds,

That fall up into the sky,

And create the stars,

That embrace your sweet soul that has left me too soon,

Always dreaming of you,

Wishing you were still here,

But you are not,

You left me too soon,

Forever loving you,

And your memory,

My flower.

Copyright © 2012 by

Atirah Jewel