Silent Tears

Why does my love,

The one I love so much,

My lover,

Why does my love,

Love another?

I’ve tried so hard to let him know,

How deep my love for him goes,

I’ve changed myself,

I’ve even changed my name,

And still I sit and quietly weep,

When he smiles in his sleep,

Because I know he is dreaming of someone else,

Because I know it is her lips he longs to press against his,

It is her body he wished to hold gently,

I pray, so long and hard,

I pray when he looks at me I wouldn’t wish I was her,

But I do wish I was her,

I wish I was as pretty as her,

And charismatic like her,

He wishes I was her,

If he thinks of me at all,

My heart breaks whenever I see them together,

Laughing and smiling,

The gleam in his eyes when he sees her,

I have to hold in my tears until I get away,

When I leave them together,

I know he is a little bit happier,

I sit alone, angry, jealous, frustrated, heart-broken,

All of my emotions released,

And I cry,

I silently cry it all out,

Why does my love, my life,

Have to love another?

I don’t know how this story will end,

I don’t even remember how it began,

All I know is I will continue to let him break my heart,

I will continue to silently cry,

I will continue to hide my feelings,

Because I know I still love him,

And even if it is the death of me,

Even if my heart breaks so much it shatters beyond repair,

No matter what I do,

Or how hard I try,

I just can’t seem to stop myself,

From loving him,

The one I love so much,

My lover who loves another.

Copyright © 2012 by

Atirah Jewel

Alone With You

Alone with you,

My heart open for you to take,

Our love could never be true,

Hopeful whispers making my insides ache,

If only we could be,

Together under this sun,

If only they could see,

For me you are the only one,

We could be so good together,

Holding each other tight,

We could stay like this forever,

But we can only stay here for one night,

Our chaotic affection,

Will be the death of us,

Possessed by this infection,

This will end with broken hearts and broken trust,

So why not just leave each other alone,

Before we die instead,

No one cares anymore they are all gone,

No need to care for we are already dead.

Copyright © 2012 by

Atirah Jewel

Our Last Dance

Oh what I would give to hold you again,

Everything,

I remember clearly,

That time we spent together,

Not knowing it would be the last,

How perfect the evening was,

Feasting on the most delicious food,

Reminiscing the times we had with each other,

I was gazing dreamily at the ring you had given me,

It was simple yet more beautiful than any other you could have got me,

Inscribed on it were the words of your love,

Wrapped in each other’s arms we danced,

We spun and twirled until our feet became sore,

My knees were so weak,

I was sure I would fall,

But caught me with your lips,

And carried me to a place to lie,

You held me then,

You said you wouldn’t let go,

Your whispered promise echoed in my mind for hours,

A promise you would come to break,

Leaving me cold all alone,

No longer kept warm by your embrace,

You let me go,

All I can think of is when we danced,

Our last dance,

At the time I didn’t know it,

But I do now,

You will not love me anymore,

You scattered my broken heart on the floor,

And left me to pick up the pieces,

So cruel of you,

Yet I cannot hate you,

I can only think of that night,

When we drank and we kissed,

When we held each other and your promise,

But one thing returns to my mind the most,

Over and over breaking through every thought I have that doesn’t include you,

When we danced,

Our last dance,

So clumsily graceful,

The one thing in this world I will probably never forget,

The other half of my soul,

And the best night we have ever spent together,

Was also unknowingly the night,

Of our last dance.

Copyright © 2012 by

Atirah Jewel