Silent Tears

Published March 26, 2012 by atirahjewel

Why does my love,

The one I love so much,

My lover,

Why does my love,

Love another?

I’ve tried so hard to let him know,

How deep my love for him goes,

I’ve changed myself,

I’ve even changed my name,

And still I sit and quietly weep,

When he smiles in his sleep,

Because I know he is dreaming of someone else,

Because I know it is her lips he longs to press against his,

It is her body he wished to hold gently,

I pray, so long and hard,

I pray when he looks at me I wouldn’t wish I was her,

But I do wish I was her,

I wish I was as pretty as her,

And charismatic like her,

He wishes I was her,

If he thinks of me at all,

My heart breaks whenever I see them together,

Laughing and smiling,

The gleam in his eyes when he sees her,

I have to hold in my tears until I get away,

When I leave them together,

I know he is a little bit happier,

I sit alone, angry, jealous, frustrated, heart-broken,

All of my emotions released,

And I cry,

I silently cry it all out,

Why does my love, my life,

Have to love another?

I don’t know how this story will end,

I don’t even remember how it began,

All I know is I will continue to let him break my heart,

I will continue to silently cry,

I will continue to hide my feelings,

Because I know I still love him,

And even if it is the death of me,

Even if my heart breaks so much it shatters beyond repair,

No matter what I do,

Or how hard I try,

I just can’t seem to stop myself,

From loving him,

The one I love so much,

My lover who loves another.

Copyright © 2012 by

Atirah Jewel

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